Grad School Drop Out

2 Corinthians 3:5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God,

This scripture has not come up in the reading yet but it is on my heart. May is the time of year where everyone is graduating and moving on to new chapters in life. I was suppose to be graduating with my Masters of Education today. (SIDENOTE: One of our writers, Teara, whom I have been blessed to call a friend since college, recently became DR. LANDER and I am so proud of you!!! I always knew you would and will do great things.) I decided to stop the pursuit of my masters in the second semester of my first year for several reasons. I felt guilty for not being able to spend time with my children but still teaching and using all my energy on the kids I taught daily. I felt like I didn’t really have a passion for the pursuit of the degree anymore. I wasn’t sure if it was REALLY what God wanted me to do anymore. My mom was still dealing with cancer and I felt like I should have been and wanted to be doing more to be there for her and our family.

It was a rough decision that I OFTEN regret making especially when I see all my friends, who I am genuinely proud of, reaching those academic and professional goals but I quit. Man, social media will make you think everyone is living the dream, right? SMH. The world, heck Satan, tries to convince you that because you chose something else besides the norm that you are a failure. That you are not good enough and without purpose because you didn’t take the route of your peers. I have to constantly speak life into myself and remember that God chose me to do all the things I currently do for a reason. I have purpose in my everyday life and that I am not a failure. I also need to give recognize my husband who also speaks life into me and encourages me.

Without credentials, God is opening doors for me to minister to his people in ways I didn’t think would ever be my story. I have started tackling my own personal goals because I a made time for it and people are being blessed by it! I am starting to sew more which keeps me connected to the spirit of my mom and it is becoming a love of mine. Because I stopped grad school my husband was able to complete and receive his masters degree in a year. My children are more balanced and I am more patient. I am in pursuit of joy and purpose in different ways then I thought were possibilities. Yes, I know, I can still go back to school. It’s not over BUT we shall see. 🙂

God has given each and everyone of us purpose and that looks different on us all. My purpose is not your purpose and my journey is not your journey. My why is not your why. I thank God that he is qualifying me and growing me in new passions daily and giving me a drive and love for things I never thought possible. I am striving really hard to let God drive this car and take the route he wants for me and not my own.

I will leave you with 3 scriptures that hopefully will encourage you to be and do what GOD called you to do. I love you all and pray that you have an amazing day.

***2 Corinthians 3:5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God,

***Ephesians 2:10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

***Proverbs 16:9 A man’s heart plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps.”



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